Forget everything is the best
Saturday, February 18, 2012
I wish I could forget everything.
Then I will have no regret... and I wont feel any pain
I wont be lonely too??
Nowadays, people r so gd at pretending tat they dunno who their friends were...
It's like....like a miracle...
I hate alot of people
why pretend?? Dun like then dun be wif them!!
Juz because they dun wan to be alone then they stick to one another juz for the sake of not being lonely?
Tsk! Such brainless idea.
Tis will only cause trouble...
I dun care and cant be bothered, I have music
Juz wanna forget...
I tink I dun ever wanna treasure my frenz alot from now on...
Because it's suck and hurt whenever u saw them and they pretend to not see you
And all u can ever do is juz recall all those precious memories u had with them. Then u start wondering if those memories were juz a dream or was it true....
I also hate people who think they r big shot. Juz because they got someone who could back them up then they could do anything they want?
FOR GOD SAKE!!
It juz shows that they r weak and need help...
urg!!
PAINFUL MEMORIES
11:51 PM
withlove ,
After so long..
Saturday, November 12, 2011
After so long, being a stupid girl, I still continue to wait.
Why??
Because it's hard to forget....
I've always told myself That I HAVE to forget u, I can't keep waiting...
But guess what??
The next day, I still think abt u....
But time is up...
I found a new reason and a way to forget u...
I will find someone who I LOVE more thn u
Even though I wont forget u, but if I ever think abt u when I have a bf alr, thn I am sure I will have more sweet memories abt him thn I have with you...
U might think someone like me won't ever find someone who would love me but so what??
I think I wan to just focus myself changing to another person. Changing I mean in terms of appearance... I wont change becoz of another person, I change because I WANT TO...
Juz u w8 and c...
5:58 AM
withlove ,
y do people love to ruin a beautiful day?
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Another " shit " day thx 2 SOMEONE!!!!
Early morning was such a gd day.
Plus raining and went out with Cora, it becomes a beautiful day...
Then go tut...okok and the mood still remains.
After I reach home, mother show concern and was somewhat different....Different is that she busy and she still talks to me.
Then later she went out, I want go down buy things then IT started...
Shit lor him
He bigger than me so WHAT?Act so gd like tat, ask me ask my grandma if can...
Like he gt listen also....Also act only...
Talk cock la him...
Know I talkin abt him he still ask, no common sense...
Like darin me to say.
Want beat me then beat la, like it will affect me like tat.
This kinda ppl will take 100yrs to make me feel affected lor...
Shit him, ruin my day juz like this...
GO DIE!!!
Tmr school alr.
Muz rush my hmk. Muz do properly also if nt I'm in deep shit.
Wed no half day is like a total bullshit lor....
1:34 AM
withlove ,
I feel like I juz woke up from eternal slp
Friday, January 28, 2011
Phew!
I'm awake....
Alr gettin ready 4 " o " level alr...Omg! Think I got up late...
Recently, things has been goin well 4 me
I tink I'm connected to the rain.
Pls rain more often??
So long nvr post anything....- well, I've been bz dreaming...
There are many storybooks that I'm interested in...
If I ever have any powers....
I must be able to make things appear and disappear ( SO COOL )
I must also wan to be able to memorise things by juz readin ( SWEET~! )
I also must be able to fly
hahas.,...storybook will always be storybook....
I muz start readin the reality ones....
Today training is quite fun.
I cant believe I fell down! Omg! I juz cant....
My legs hurt like hell....
I want to take a LONG LONG LONG break but impossible. It's becoz I wanna win!
Therefore, no choice. My last yr somemore...
I hope my " shou hu tian shi "(read in chinese) is watchin over me....
8:13 PM
withlove ,
??
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
My voice cant seem to reach some people.y IS tat so?I wont believe tat my voice is soft.Mayb I will stop talkin or talk less to those whom my voice cannot reach.Redue less unnesessary thoughts and all those feelings.I believe things r gettin better as each day pass?I cant b so sure yet.If I let down my guard any moment, I will find myself in the bottom of hellI wont think anything unnesessary anymore.I wont care about anything unrelated to me.I will still try my best.Juz wish the best for everything :DJuz smile smile smile. hehesPray to god...
7:49 AM
withlove ,
Born??
Friday, May 7, 2010
I feel like I'm born just yesterday for some reason...Juz recently I figure out tat things happening in this world are too crazy.It is either I m nt crazy enough or I am SO OUT of this world.Damn damn crazy.Alr so crazy then I read 2 storybk makes me feel like me bein in this world is like a dream. Like I could not wake up from my TRUE world.First bk is about some parent sending their kids to a crazy n stupid place juz becoz they stay up late night, being overweight, have tattoo and bad attitude. 5 or 4 girls planning to escape n expose the true face of the place. In the end, the place was shut down was like a prison. I tink worse than prison.Another bk is about church and christian. Havent finish readin bt have been lookin forward to every pg coz it's nice. Talkin abt a girl being send to a church sch becoz she was kicked out of public sch. She was kicked out becoz she STABBED someone. Can u believe it?? If it happens in a real world, I tink I'm juz gonna b shocked till I faint. She did tat coz someone threaten to pull down her pants =.='''Okay so it was nt her fault. They have fun there n I tink I would wan to go to a sch like tatSch is gettin better each day I guess...Especially when exam. I might b a bit crazy to tink tat I dun wan exaM END SO FAST bt it's wad I really feels abt it...Somehow this exam happening right now is juz too gd to b true.Everybody in class is a changing...wad abt me? I tink I change the most..Suddenly readin bks instead of disturbin people...Oh bt I still disturb them though. Juz nt as much as I used to.Miss cora so much. This week only get to go home wif her for once. I hope next wk no more remedials. I wan go home wif her!!!!Also, I hope we get to talk lots of things. Recently we both seems to b quiet. Dunno wad happen. Think it's becoz we 2 r juz somehow similar? Hahas. Character abit similar so like this uh...I dunno wad to say to her.Wan tel her abt me things bt scare she'll get irritated 4 some reasons.haiz...It's hard being myself all the time. Juz nt used to it. Well, I always had a mask on my face n when I take down my mask 4 too long, I feel weird. I take down when I'm wif cora. I dare say her coz she nvr reads my blog when it's THIS LONG n THIS COLOURFULhahas. Evil me.
2:17 AM
withlove ,
Monday, May 3, 2010
I am so curious....Curious about emotions and feelings...R they the same?Y do we have them?I juz dun get it when I tink abt it...Wont it b better if everyone has no feelings or emotions??Then they cant feel pain, anger, sadness or happiness...Happiness only last 4 a moment.I heard " when you receive this amount of happiness, u will have to receive the same amount of sadness "Y go through so much juz to receive " THIS " happiness??If everyone do not have emotion or feelings, it would feel much better...Everyone juz doin their own things. Doin wad they r suppose to b doin...Choosing things nt becoz u like them bt becoz u saw it first.People get married when they juz met.People talk or chat becoz they r lonely or becoz they have nth better to do...In this kinda world, wad could happen??No worries every night.No crying...No heart-breaking momentNo moment whr u will b thinkin someone.Kinda feels tat tis kinda world is much smoothing...Everyone juz doin things they r juz told.If thr's such world, I tink I wan to juz go into tat world n slp all dayEven if no one cares abt me, I wont have worries. I'll do wadever I like. I'll slp all day, letting time passes through without me knowing...Looking at the sky all day long, day-dreaming....Juz w8in 4 the day u die to come...wAt 4 u have goal n u cant achieve when u alr die?I tink we shoulod enjoy the life that " god " has given us...." Time pass quickly... No matter how fast or how much I've said " time pass so quickly ", I seems to notice tat time really pass...I dun wan to know time have pass. I dun wan to know which day is coming. I dun wan to know what celebration I'm gonna look forward to in how many days...I dun wan to know, I only wan to know tat the day " I have come to die" has come
6:26 AM
withlove ,
