Sometimes I juz wish I could
forget everything ♥
Born??
Friday, May 7, 2010
I feel like I'm born just yesterday for some reason...Juz recently I figure out tat things happening in this world are too crazy.It is either I m nt crazy enough or I am SO OUT of this world.Damn damn crazy.Alr so crazy then I read 2 storybk makes me feel like me bein in this world is like a dream. Like I could not wake up from my TRUE world.First bk is about some parent sending their kids to a crazy n stupid place juz becoz they stay up late night, being overweight, have tattoo and bad attitude. 5 or 4 girls planning to escape n expose the true face of the place. In the end, the place was shut down was like a prison. I tink worse than prison.Another bk is about church and christian. Havent finish readin bt have been lookin forward to every pg coz it's nice. Talkin abt a girl being send to a church sch becoz she was kicked out of public sch. She was kicked out becoz she STABBED someone. Can u believe it?? If it happens in a real world, I tink I'm juz gonna b shocked till I faint. She did tat coz someone threaten to pull down her pants =.='''Okay so it was nt her fault. They have fun there n I tink I would wan to go to a sch like tatSch is gettin better each day I guess...Especially when exam. I might b a bit crazy to tink tat I dun wan exaM END SO FAST bt it's wad I really feels abt it...Somehow this exam happening right now is juz too gd to b true.Everybody in class is a changing...wad abt me? I tink I change the most..Suddenly readin bks instead of disturbin people...Oh bt I still disturb them though. Juz nt as much as I used to.Miss cora so much. This week only get to go home wif her for once. I hope next wk no more remedials. I wan go home wif her!!!!Also, I hope we get to talk lots of things. Recently we both seems to b quiet. Dunno wad happen. Think it's becoz we 2 r juz somehow similar? Hahas. Character abit similar so like this uh...I dunno wad to say to her.Wan tel her abt me things bt scare she'll get irritated 4 some reasons.haiz...It's hard being myself all the time. Juz nt used to it. Well, I always had a mask on my face n when I take down my mask 4 too long, I feel weird. I take down when I'm wif cora. I dare say her coz she nvr reads my blog when it's THIS LONG n THIS COLOURFULhahas. Evil me.
2:17 AM
withlove ,
Monday, May 3, 2010
I am so curious....Curious about emotions and feelings...R they the same?Y do we have them?I juz dun get it when I tink abt it...Wont it b better if everyone has no feelings or emotions??Then they cant feel pain, anger, sadness or happiness...Happiness only last 4 a moment.I heard " when you receive this amount of happiness, u will have to receive the same amount of sadness "Y go through so much juz to receive " THIS " happiness??If everyone do not have emotion or feelings, it would feel much better...Everyone juz doin their own things. Doin wad they r suppose to b doin...Choosing things nt becoz u like them bt becoz u saw it first.People get married when they juz met.People talk or chat becoz they r lonely or becoz they have nth better to do...In this kinda world, wad could happen??No worries every night.No crying...No heart-breaking momentNo moment whr u will b thinkin someone.Kinda feels tat tis kinda world is much smoothing...Everyone juz doin things they r juz told.If thr's such world, I tink I wan to juz go into tat world n slp all dayEven if no one cares abt me, I wont have worries. I'll do wadever I like. I'll slp all day, letting time passes through without me knowing...Looking at the sky all day long, day-dreaming....Juz w8in 4 the day u die to come...wAt 4 u have goal n u cant achieve when u alr die?I tink we shoulod enjoy the life that " god " has given us...." Time pass quickly... No matter how fast or how much I've said " time pass so quickly ", I seems to notice tat time really pass...I dun wan to know time have pass. I dun wan to know which day is coming. I dun wan to know what celebration I'm gonna look forward to in how many days...I dun wan to know, I only wan to know tat the day " I have come to die" has come
6:26 AM
withlove ,
