A crush or brother?
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Is this another crush or do I juz wan him to be my brother and take care of me?
Because I had a dream about him juz like I had a dream about my ex...
Haiz...
I dream about myself waking up from a long long sleep....
When I woke up, I was just like a little girl. So curious about the things around me...
Den, I remember I had 4 big brothers. HE was one of them.
I was playing around the beach with my brothers around but they were doing their own things.
While I was playing, a big fat guy came towards me and smile creepily.
I stop building the sandcastle and look at him scared.
He began to touch me but I wrapped myself up tightly and was shaking due to fear.
HE and another brother quickly came over. The big fat guy saw, so he quickly ran away.
HE took off his own jacket and began to wrap it around me.... soon, I fall alseep again,
It was warm and safe.
Den, I woke up again and say my brothers playing ball.
I stood up and took the jacket. Juz den, he was next to me, taking my jacket.
I smile at him and walk towards my other brothers.
Halfway there, I saw a cute and unique dog, and I began to follow it.
Den came across a girl and soon we became friend.
We went window shopping, learning about lots of stuff.
Den I receive a text from HIM, asking where I am.
And well, that's when I woke up...
LOLS, NOT MUCH but... I can stil rememeber it VERY CLEARLY
2:53 AM
withlove ,
Not what I wanted
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
This is so not me.
Every decision I made, once it made me feel glad tat I did it, things would turn out wrong.
I don't understand and I don't get it.
Why~?
I feel like I'm going against fate.
And it doesnt want me to win so it is using everything it has to make me go back to where I begin
I couldnt make progress
Things gets messed up.
I started to get confused
Feelings starts to make me remember something I dun wan to remember and something I dun wan to know
I hate this....
I dont like it....
But there's no one I can turn to but myself....
Because I couldnt put these feelings into words, and no one will understand but myself...
I'm lost,
I'm stuck
Who will be there to save me
Who will be there to just give me their company
And who will be there, to just be my listening ear and not judge me??
3:33 AM
withlove ,
Seriously?? Why~?
Monday, June 11, 2012
I am beginning to think something is SERIOUSLY WRONG with me
To hell to those people who just keep rejecting me even as a friend.
Urg~!! Don't know what the hell is wrong with you people....
I think I should consider being a lesbian already
I mean I mostly attract girls than guys. PLUS girls seem to be more willingly to like come to me and accept me and have fun and WHAT-SO-EVER
BUT guys??!!
SERIOUSLY, I just wan to chat as friend? Like being hot and cold towards me
One time u so friendly and kind and helpful, the next, TOTALLY ignored me...
Cool huh??!!
SERIOUSLY!! F*CK ALL THESE GUYS AND GET A GRIP
It's not like I'm desperate or something. If u don't wan chat wif me, tell me.
Like what will I do....Kill u just becoz u don't wan chat wif me?
OH PLEASE
Like I will waste my F*CKING life killin u and spending my life in jail FOR U...
WHO DO U THINK U R
Haiz, maybe I should really consider being a lesbian. But it's not fun being one, I swear....
Because, one of them have to be a guy and.... well.....high chance it would be me....
I wan to be love more than I love my lover....
Doesnt matter anyway. sometimes it's good to be single too....
If not everyday get frustrated why lover nvr text me, nvr call me
LIKE I HAVE ENOUGH BRAIN CELL FOR THAT...
Tmr exam, I'm so worried. Just hope everything goes well for me....
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE~!!!!
7:42 AM
withlove ,
